“Don’t be afraid of your fears. They’re not there to scare you. They’re there to let you know that something is worth it.”
― C. JoyBell C.
Over the last few days, I’ve been trying to make the best decision. It really isn’t fair, me having the power over Liza’s future. Maybe not while reading Mystic Waters but certainly during Chasing the Tide you’ll see she is…so powerful…so stunning, that it really is unfair, me being responsible for her.
That being said, I will fight for this story and I will not accept a situation I’m not 100% all for. Most of you know, I always go with my gut. I lost sight of that in the excitement of receiving an offer. But I’m letting you all know that I’ve decided not to sign the contract with Winslet Press. This has nothing to do with their company or their offers. In fact, I encourage you all to query them. They just weren’t right for me. They didn’t give me the feeling I got when I decided to choose Rosemi over my initial choice as an editor.
And, so, these last few days, I sat in fear. Was anyone else going to want to publish me? Was I going to have to start querying all over again? Would I have to self publish? The scariest part was, I’m so exhausted. Being a Soldier is a job and a half. I managed to cough up a full book and I am paying for it now while working on the sequel. I still write and I still love it. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss my lunch breaks, my sleep, hell, my sanity. But, if I’m not writing, I’m thinking about writing, so it has to be done. It’s scary having to jump right back out there when I could’ve simply accepted their offer. But I wouldn’t have been happy. And Rosemi (God bless that woman) told me something that really stuck with me. She said:
You know what’s best for you and your writing career. Liza didn’t pretend to love Josh, which left her available for true love.
Do you see why she was the woman for the editing job? And now she’s the woman for the agenting job. That’s right. I’ve agreed to be Rosemi’s first client. And, for the first time in weeks, I feel like I’m moving in the right direction. I know if Liza had a say, she’d be very happy with this decision. Some of you think this is risky. But I’m willing to take a chance on a woman who is willing to take a chance on me. And if I know anything about Rosemi, I know she loves Mystic Waters. So, while the ride may be a bit longer, I ask that you all continue to ride along with me.
I took my fear and I didn’t let it dictate my decisions. My apprehensions are gone. Wish us luck!
Now playing Daughtry’s Waiting for Superman.
All my love,